Today, I found myself grieving.
I sat with my grief for the afternoon.
I wrapped myself up in my sorrow.
I couldn’t understand the surmounting grief welling within me.
Finally I burst into tears.
As I sat with these tears,
I remembered that love had found me here
love would take me where I needed to go.
The afternoon faded into the night
I sat with the dark.
Drying my tears.
I was ready to shift
I let my body take me into the next moment.
I walked into my bedroom
with tears still brimming my eyes
I stopped in front of the mirror
and I told myself.
I know you hurt.
I can see the pain in your eyes.
You are going to be okay.
Everything will work itself out.
In time Te’.
I had never done that before.
I stood until I could look myself in the eyes.
Blue eyes. Deep blue.
The colour of the sea on a stormy day.
I saw myself as someone for the first time
who has known pain.
I stood there and looked my pain in the eye
And I wept with her.
©2014 Te’ Werner
Excerpted Journal Entry