Giving dreams flight takes an amazing amount of will power. Sheer grit. Coming from German descendants whose grandmothers had both emigrated from Russia. The strong stubborn will finally kicked in. But first, the universe had a gift of humanity for me to experience once again. One of my dear fellow “river warrior’s” was dying a slow death of cancer.
Each day taking a bit more of her frail body. Her will to fight never wavering. I sat with her. I held her hand and I stroked her thinning hair. She spoke in hushed whispers. It was in the last moments of her life that I held the profound awareness that we all have dreams that we hold onto. Some of us clutch them so tightly that they have lost some of their life force. Some of us are a bit more free to try things and see what happens. Even if it means we may need to try again. Others of us have a great deal of fear and need a bit more coaxing. Some of us, like my dear friend, may pass on without their realizing dreams.
It was at this time that I began to make room for my dreams to take flight. I didn’t know how to go about it. I began to send out this intention into the universe and low and behold, like the great masters before us whose wisdom had led the way for us to experience openings in our own lives.
My dream took the first flight.
I had held my dreams of giving birth tightly to my womb. Bound by fear. The dream of giving birth to a child. The dream of being a published author.
The New Year had approached. I sat with what I wanted to create in my life. Triumph! I had to look up the word in the dictionary to even know what it meant.
A triumph is a victory. To prevail. To succeed. A state of joy. A celebration of jubilation.
As I declared to my sweet lover man that I was going to write my book, he had only one thing to say,
“Well Te’ if you don’t write your book, you will never be able to move on with your life. With our life.”
Was that true? Would I forever be caught in the longing of my dreams that circled around my head like a halo?
I could do this. I would do this. I am doing this. And, so I began…!
©2013 Te’ Werner
Excerpted from “Dreams Take Flight” From the upcoming book: HIGH FIVE TO TRIUMPH
Photo ©2010 Alan Kowalski: Golden Wing Dragon Fly, “Our Backyard Retreat”, WA